POEM / POEM

Please come home,
I miss you so.
More then you could ever know.

Things have changed,
Since you've been gone.
No one to talk to
And no shoulder to cry on.

Our family and your friends
We all cried so much.
We miss you and your laugh
You're voice and soft touch.

I miss you and your smile.
I could add to this list,
Of everything I miss,
But there's no end, it doesn't exist.

I wish I could see you,
Just one last chance,
To see you smile,
Even if its just a glance.

I wish I could tell you
How much you meant to me
Just one last time,
Before you were set free.

Your life was too short
You had so much to live for
You were just eighteen,
And had places to explore.

Mom isn't the same
Without you in her life.
The emptiness in her eyes
Contains so much pain and strife.

Daddy has been drinking
He tries to forget,
What happened that day.
He drinks and smokes cigarettes.

It doesn't work though,
He just can't forget you.
He misses you so much,
And I do too.

Our brother is so sad
He can't cope with the pain.
A place in his heart,
Is where you'll always remain.

My sister, and your twin,
Still remains silent.
She lost her other half,
And seems so angry and violent

As for me, you're my idol
I just don't understand.
Why did you have to leave
Is it what God planned?

You have a place in my heart
I love you now, I love you still
I always have
And always will

I admire your strength
I admire your smile
I admire how you made
So many lives worthwhile.

The last breath you took,
You had a smile on your face.
And with that, I thank God
You're in a better place.

When I lay and think, in my bed at night,
the day you'll arrive, seems nowhere in sight.
I toss and I turn, dreaming of you,
opening my eye's... checking if my dream came true.
It didn't, again, and a tear starts to roll,
weeping quietly... my pillow I hold.

Many sleepless nights I've prayed for you, my love.
God touched my soul from heaven above
He's answered my prayers for my bride to be.
I've never felt this lucky, God did this for me.
That's a question I asked each and every night.

He must think your special, Joy, and I know he's right.
No other has made me feel so complete,
my whole life was lived, just so we could meet.
All these thoughts and more going through my head.
I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you... instead.

When we are apart my feelings are deep and true,
I know you are in pain for what I have done.
As I lay in bed alone I feel the same pain as you,
As you cry in bed I feel your tears down my cheek.
And sorry is not enough. I love you very much...
I never want to be away from you, out of touch.

I lay in bed alone at night and wonder why I'm here.
I do so much for everyone
Why don't they show they care?
I met this girl who said she loved me
something I haven't heard in so long.
She used me for my money
what a ride she took me on.
There is so much hurt I feel, so much anger trapped inside.
Sometimes I wish my dad was here, but to me he's not alive.
I have no one to talk to
These drugs seem to be the only way
Turns out it's a lie just like the smile I put on each and everyday.
I know outside I'm smiling, It's the face I fake for you,
But inside my soul is crying and there is nothing I can do.
I know my family loves me,
I'm there when their decisions are poor.
I'm sick of feeling like this walked on rug thrown upon the floor.
I lay in bed and wonder what the hell I'm doing here
Can I wake up from this dream?
Can I please just disappear?

Fathers are wonderful people
Too little understood,
And we do not sing their praises
As often as we should...

For, somehow, Father seems to be
The man who pays the bills,
While Mother binds up little hurts
And nurses all our ills...

And Father struggles daily
To live up to "his image"
As protector and provider
And "hero of the scrimmage"...

And perhaps that is the reason
We sometimes get the notion,
That Fathers are not subject
To the thing we call emotion,

But if you look inside Dad's heart,
Where no one else can see
You'll find he's sentimental
And as "soft" as he can be...

But he's so busy every day
In the grueling race of life,
He leaves the sentimental stuff
To his partner and his wife...

But Fathers are just wonderful
In a million different ways,
And they merit loving compliments
And accolades of praise,

For the only reason Dad aspires
To fortune and success
Is to make the family proud of him
And to bring them happiness...

And like Our Heavenly Father,
He's a guardian and a guide,
Someone that we can count on
To be always on our side.

When I think about my father,
and the years we've had to share
I'm thankful just to know
that his love is always there.

Through the crazy days of youth
and now that I'm "mature"
the special bond between us
is still strong and will endure.

And though he's growing older
he grows sweeter with each year
my "knight in shining armor,"
I'm so glad to have you here!

Another year has passed,
And a new year is about to begin,
Everything you put your mind to,
Will be accomplished and you will win.

Just look forward in your life,
And set your goals for the year,
Then have a glass of champagne,
And bring in a lot of cheer.

So don't look back at the past,
Believe this year will be the best,
All of your dreams are there for you,
Because you are so very blessed!