I heard the footsteps coming and I knew this would be another long night
And something inside me screamed this time it really isn't right
The words he was saying were ruthless and cruel
And each time he hit me I sat there and obeyed each and every rule
I sat there blank faced and scared knowing that I couldn't cry
For I knew what would happen if he saw the tears in my eyes
Each and every swing felt worse and worse
And then all I wanted was to be dead in a hearse
He got real close and whispered "Bitch I wish you weren't alive"
And all I was thinking was you're right, I wish I wouldn't survive
He threw against the wall then proceeded to pin me to the ground
He hit me again, covered my mouth, not letting me make a sound
I started to struggle and tried to release myself of his forceful grip
Then the next thing I heard was a loud, horrifying rip
His hands were cold and I cringed at first touch
I don't understand how a father could hate his daughter so much
I froze and I couldn't believe that this was really going on
I just kept looking at the clock wanting him to be gone
I tried so badly not to think of the sharp pain
And this wasn't part of his usual game
I closed my eyes wishing the time would just pass by
And that next time I opened them I would be up in the sky
He pushed harder and harder and excruciating pain was all I felt
The next thing I heard was the unbuckling of his belt
Something happened inside of me that I can not explain
I got this surge of energy and said "f you and your reign"
Somehow, someway I got out just in time
But what he had already done will never get out of my mind
From then on my life has been forever changed
It was like all I knew had been rearranged
I hate him with everything I have in me and so much more
And one day I want to end this war
Nothing can beat the pain I felt today.
Never thought so much hurt would come my way.
I tried to brush it off like there was nothing there.
As I try to fight the pain it gives me a hard stare.
It says, Why do you brush me off and push me out of the way?
You know exactly why I'm here and that I'm here to stay.
That's right? Just pick up that blade and cut yourself real quick.
Nobody will ever know if you do it real slick.
Make sure there's no stain on your shirt and all.
If anyone asks, tell them you had a hard fall.
Oh, and by the way, I have rules for you.
I wrote them in your mind for you to look through.
No short sleeves, no doctors, and take your blades everywhere.
If someone notices the cuts, make sure they don't stare.
There will be no bathing suits or skin showing of any kind,
And no boys touching you, so keep that in mind.
Make sure you never stop cutting because I like that the best.
Oh, yeah, there's one more rule? No more happiness.
I THINK MY MUM IS AN ALIEN,
NO REALLY , HONESTLY, IT’S TRUE,
SHE SAYS SHE HAS EYES IN THE BACK OF HER HEAD,
WELL THAT’S A FLIPPIN’ BIG CLUE.
SHE MAY BE TELE PATHETIC AS WELL,
'COS SHE ALWAYS KNOWS WHEN WE LIE,
AND SOMETIMES WHEN SHE’S IN A TERRIBLE RUSH,
SHE SAYS THAT ‘ SHE’LL JUST HAVE TO FLY’.
I THINK SHE PROBABLY HAS SUPER POWERS
WITH X-RAY VISION TOO,
SHE SAYS SHE DOES THE WORK OF TEN MEN EACH DAY,
AND TELLS DAD, ‘ I CAN SEE RIGHT THRU’ YOU’ .
I THINK HER WEAKNESS IS DIRT AND GERMS,
SHE’S ALWAYS CLEANING UP AFTER US,
AND SHE MAKES US WEAR CLEAN UNDIES EVERYDAY,
‘JUST IN CASE’ WE MIGHT GET.. ‘ HIT BY A BUS’
AND WHEN SHE TUCKS US UP IN BED AT NIGHT,
SHE USES HER POWERS OF HYPNOSIS,
TO MAKE US FEEL LIKE TIRED LITTLE SLEEPYHEADS,
I THINK MY MUM IS THE MOSTEST.
Smiling is infectious,
You catch it like the flu,
When someone smiled at me today,
I started smiling too.
I passed around the corner,
And someone saw my grin,
When he smiled I realized,
I'd passed it on to him.
I thought about that smile,
Then realized its worth,
A single smile, just like mine,
Could travel round the earth.
So, if you feel a smile begin,
Don't leave it undetected.
Let's start an epidemic quick,
And get the world infected.
I did a favor yesterday,
A kindly little deed...
And then I called to all the world
To stop and look and heed.
They stopped and looked and flattered me
In words I could not trust,
And when the world had gone away
My good deed turned to dust.
A very tiny courtesy
I found to do today;
'Twas quickly done, with none to see,
And then I ran away...
But Someone must have witnessed it,
For--truly I declare--
As I sped back the stony path
Roses were blooming there!
As a friend I do wish you the best of life's blessings
And freedom from sickness and pain.
May your prayers and oblations, as blooms of carnations,
Flourish in sunshine and rain.
May the blessings of heaven be showered upon you
With favor from God and from man.
May you harvest with pleasure the fruits of your labor
To share with whoever you can.
May the dew in the morning refresh and delight you,
And your days be filled with great peace.
May your nights without number be filled with sweet slumber;
Your dreams filled with hope ne'er cease.
May your mate and your children bequeathed and beloved
Be cherished as jewels set in gold.
May your joy blend with laughter, both now and hereafter,
As the days of your life unfold.
not knowing who you'd be.
I asked the Lord to send a friend.
One chosen just for me.
I asked that they'd be Godly,
with wisdom of His ways.
A friend to help and guide me
in the troubles of these days.
So often in life, we need someone
to listen while we talk.
Someone who will not condemn or judge,
but encourage us as we walk.
The narrow road we choose to follow
may sometimes make us stumble,
but to have a friend to catch our fall,
teaches us to be humble.
When I asked the Lord to send a friend,
though many came and went,
He gave much more than I ever asked,
for you are the friend He sent.
Crimson red fills the bowl and I think I'm going to be sick.
With every thing spinning so fast I cannot breath.
Walls closing in and everything fades.
Fashes of light come by, one, by one.
Feeling sleepy not knowing your name.
Not knowing mine.
There it is. my favorite thing of all this,
ah the feeling of pain is gone from before and new form enters me.
Laying here waiting for you to come home.
I open my eyes and see flashes of you and me from before you went.
You walk inside.
You call to me and wait for an answer.
You hear small light breaths coming from the bathroom.
thinking it is me, you walk down the hall with a smile.
the kind that makes your knees go week.
You walk in. Oh god, is all you can think.
I'm trying to look up at you but I can't move.
a cold chill comes over me as you pick me up.
You say we are going to the hospital and that everything will be ok.
You rush me in.
Blood running down.
The nurse rushes you to a bed so I can lay down.
I can hear you asking her something.
But I can't make out the words.
I feel something cold and wet touch my face then my arm.
I feel the prick of a sharp object go in my right arm.
The nurse says that I need stitches because the wound is to deep.
I feel the thread go in and out through my arm.
And a band-aid go around and around.
After I have slept for two days they let you in.
I can move again and open my eyes.
You say that I got 76 stitches because the cuts were way to deep.
And that I almost died.
I pull off the band-aid and look.
I see over 20 cuts and begin to cry.
You tell me its ok and we will get some help.
About 5 years later.
We have two to deal with ourselves.
Jake and Emma.
A beautiful baby boy and baby girl.
The scars are still there.
Some times I wish I could go back 5 years and change what I did do so I can make it right.
You were born today
A gift from God
The blessing we waited for
Your small fingers, your tiny toes
You turned one today
You say my name, Daddy
I feel my heart melt
The cute smile on your face
You teeter totter when you walk
You turned two today
We "talk" about your favorite show
You cry when I had to leave for work
I promised to be home soon
A little kiss on my cheek, "I love you, Daddy."
You turned three today
You are so precious to me
We went out to celebrate
We were hit on the highway
The officer said something about his state
The man had been drinking, a little too much
I hold you lifeless body
A peck on your cheek, remembering, "I love you, Daddy."
You would have been four today
A tear trickles down my cheek
I remember your little voice
"Daddy, Let's play."
I kneel down, placing four roses on your grave
It hurts to remember your hugs and kisses
And the memory, "I love you, Daddy."
You would have been five today
I try not to think about it
But the emptiness won't stop
I wonder what you would have said today
Probably the sweetness of "I love you, Daddy."
The years pass by
But you are still on my mind
Still in my heart
I miss you so very much
You would have been ten today
I can imagine you on your new bike
I try to hear you laugh at my jokes
All I can think of is you
I wish I could hear "I love you, Daddy."
The years pass by
But you are still on my mind
Still in my heart
I miss you so very much
You would have been thirteen today
I see you in my mind, beautiful
Slumber parties, field trips, and friends
All the things that could have been
And, in my mind I hear "I love you, Daddy."
The years pass by
But you are still on my mind
Still in my heart
I miss you so very much
You would have been sixteen today
Sweet sixteen, dresses and curls, boyfriends
A dance together that will never happen
I pretend to see you twirl around
All you say is "I love you, Daddy."
The years pass by
But you are still on my mind
Still in my heart
I miss you so very much
You would have been eighteen today
Moving out, on your own
Living life to the fullest
A brand new life awaiting your charm
And as you leave, you say
"I love you, Daddy."
The years pass by
But you are still on my mind
Still in my heart
I miss you so very much
You would have been twenty-one today
You run to me and say, "I'm engaged."
Excited, I hug you and kiss your cheek
It would have been my turn to walk you down the aisle
As I give you away, you stop and say,
"I love you, Daddy."
I wish all these things could have been
If only you were still here
My life would mean so much more
Only if I could really hear you say,
"I love you, Daddy."
Sweet melody amidst the moving spheres
Breaks forth, a solemn and entrancing sound,
A harmony whereof the earth's green hills
Give but the faintest echo; yet is there
A music everywhere, and concert sweet!
All birds which sing amidst the forest deep
Till the flowers listen with unfolded bells;
All winds that murmur over summer grass,
Or curl the waves upon the pebbly shore;
Chiefly all earnest human voices rais'd
In charity and for the cause of truth,
Mingle together in one sacred chord,
And float, a grateful incense, up to God.
Dear Mom, I said a prayer for you
to thank the Lord above
For blessing me with a lifetime
of your tenderhearted love.
I thanked God for the caring
you've shown me through the years,
For the closeness we've enjoyed
in time of laughter and of tears.
And so, I thank you from the heart
for all you've done for me
And I bless the Lord for giving me
the best mother there could be
Draw back the curtain,
Roll up the blind,
Look through the window,
What do you find?
A new day is dawning,
All nature’s at play.
Flowers are blooming,
In a colorful array
Open the window,
What do you hear?
Birds that are singing,
Bringing you cheer.
Leaves on the trees,
Are slightly swaying,
To the tune of a breeze;
They seem to be praying.
While nature rejoices,
You behold such a sight,
Thank God for blessings,
And start the day right.
You can have your wealth and riches
All the things so many seek,
Position, power, and success,
The fame you long to keep.
You can earn as much as you wish,
Reach a status high above,
But none of these can equal
Having one sweet child to love.
'Tis the greatest gift from heaven,
Little arms that hold you tight,
And a kiss so soft and gentle
When you tuck them in at night.
A million precious questions
And each story often read,
Two eyes so bright and smiling,
And a darling tousled head.
God has never matched the goodness
Of a trusting little face,
Or a heart so full of laughter
Spreading sunshine every place.
A child to hold and cuddle,
'Tis a gift from God above,
And the world is so much brighter
When you have a child to love.
A dream is a wish your heart makes
and my heart makes a wish for you
That you may find a rainbow
where all your dreams will come true.
May there be sunlight ever streaming
into your heart each day,
May you find the hand of friendship
along each new highway.
And may loving arms enfold you
when you need someone to care.
And may your heart know that my heart
is with you everywhere....
A friend is one who stands to share
Your every touch of grief and care
He comes by chance, but stays by choice
Your praises he is quick to voice
No grievous fault or passing whim
Can make an enemy of him
And though your need be great or small
His strength is yours throughout it all
No matter where your path may turn
Your welfare is his chief concern
No matter what your dream may be
He prays your triumph soon to see
There is no wish your tongue can tell
But what it is your friend's as well
The life of him who has a friend
Is double-guarded to the end.
What would you do
in 5 short years?
Would you make them the most
or hide from your fears?
Our little Cory
chose to live
Every day with a smile
and love to give
Though stricken with cancer
before he was one
his journey through life
had only begun
No matter how bad
he might have felt
He always knew how
to make your heart melt
Living life to its fullest
Each day he Awoke
He could make you smile
Every time he spoke
He filled the room
with laughter and tears
And touched many lives
in his 5 short years
He had a surprise
if you took his hand
then walk you outside
to his baseball land
It was the game he loved
more than anyone you know
Once his bat in hand
He'd put on a show
He would talk of his pets
if you'd lend him an ear
or anything else
you'd take time to hear
There were no strangers
to Cory Duane
He cared for everyone
no matter their name
The most amazing child
for such a young man
He looked up to his father
---- His biggest fan
When he was picked up at school
he beat all the kids out
with his arms opened wide
"That's my Dad" he would shout
They would wait on his brother
before going home with Dad
And spend the whole weekend playing
with every toy he had
He would tease his brothers
in his superman Jammies
and rock his guitar
like those at the Grammy's
Course Nana and Papa
would often stop by
to see that their "Precious"
was doing alright
At the close of day
He'd ask "Pat my Butt"
Knowing you'd take time
no matter what
He fought hard to beat
the disease he had
And would never complain
of feeling bad
It's certainly not fair
the battle he fought
All those who knew him
took in what he taught
For those who missed out
on life's smallest lesson
We're sorry you missed out
on our biggest blessing
For someone so young
his heart was of Gold
You would never have known
he was just 5 years old
I was once sad and lonely,
Having nobody to comfort me,
So I wore a mask that always smiled;
To hide my feelings behind a lie.
Before long, I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside, I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.
Nobody could hear my cries at night
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.
Behind all the smiles were the tears
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,
Wasn't everything there was to me.
Day by day,
I was slowly dying.
I couldn't go on,
There was something missing..
Until now I'm still searching
For the thing that'll stop my crying.
For someone who'll erase my fears,
For the person who'll wipe my tears.
But till then I'll keep on smiling.
Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing.
Hoping one day I can smile,
Till then, I'll be here.. waiting.
Somebody’s baby was buried to-day—
The empty white hearse from the grave rumbled back,
And the morning somehow seemed less smiling and gay
As I paused on the walk while it crossed on its way,
And a shadow seemed drawn o’er the sun’s golden track.
Somebody’s baby was laid out to rest,
White as a snowdrop, and fair to behold,
And the soft little hands were crossed over the breast,
And those hands and the lips and the eyelids were pressed
With kisses as hot as the eyelids were cold.
Somebody saw it go out of her sight,
Under the coffin lid—out through the door;
Somebody finds only darkness and blight
All through the glory of summer-sun light;
Somebody’s baby will waken no more.
Somebody’s sorrow is making me weep:
I know not her name, but I echo her cry,
For the dearly bought baby she longed so to keep,
The baby that rode to its long-lasting sleep
In the little white hearse that went rumbling by.
I know not her name, but her sorrow I know;
While I paused on the crossing I lived it once more,
And back to my heart surged that river of woe
That but in the breast of a mother can flow;
For the little white hearse has been, too, at my door.
You wiped away many tears,
And even calmed many fears.
You have kissed all sorts of parts,
You even somehow healed broken hearts.
You gave your love without a second thought,
You gave lectures when our mistakes you caught.
But you also gave hugs for no reason at all,
You held us tight whenever a tear would fall.
You gave us the courage to walk alone,
You gave us the love of a real home.
You endured many things just for our sake,
Your love was genuine so much love would be hard to fake.
You are truly a gift from God above,
Only He could've made you with that much love
Be grateful for the kindly friends
that walk along your way;
Be grateful for the skies of blue
that smile from day to day;
Be grateful for the health you own,
the work you find to do,
For round about you there are men
less fortunate than you.
Be grateful for the growing trees,
the roses soon to bloom,
The tenderness of kindly hearts
that shared your days of gloom;
Be grateful for the morning dew,
the grass beneath your feet,
The soft caresses of your babes
and all their laughter sweet.
Acquire the grateful habit,
learn to see how blest you are,
How much there is to gladden life,
how little life to mar!
And what if rain shall fall today
and you with grief are sad;
Be grateful that you can recall
the joys that you have had.
You've been there for me
through the good times and bad
I know I can count on you
to be there when I'm sad
Life without you
just wouldn't be right
I wouldn't be able to get through
each day and night
When I've had a bad day
I know that you're only a call away
When life takes that crazy turn
You are always there to help me learn
We've had so many good times together
I know we'll be best friends forever
No matter where we are
I know we'll never be too far
You're my idol, my sister, my friend
We'll be together till the end
Even when we're old and gray
You'll be here still,
to help me get on my way
When the roses lose their fragrance,
and the world seems at an end,
When the day has lost its gladness,
what a blessing is a Friend.
One who takes you as she finds you,
caring not who is to blame,
One who knows all your shortcomings,
but who loves you just the same.
Heaven sends a gift each morn,
of a bright new day to spend,
What a joy it is to share it with,
God's greatest gift...A Friend
Our fathers toil with hands and heart
to make our lives complete.
They quietly brave the winter cold,
and endure the summer heat.
Our fathers' lives are busy,
but there's always time for us.
They boldly face the ups and downs
and seldom ever fuss.
Our fathers are the greatest dads;
we know you know this, too.
But thank you for the chance to share
our love for them with you.
You're the shell of the person I once knew
When I talk I know you can hear
But I barely feel your spirit lingering near
You've given up… at least part way
I can't help but envision the words that you'd say
If you weren't the shell of a person I once knew.
You express your love for me, but that's just it
You'd rather I come and quietly sit
I wish you were more than the shell of a person I once knew.
I love you with all of my heart and soul
Sometimes I feel like I'm losing control
Because it's hard to see the shell of a person I once knew.
My heart hurts because I know you're aching
Your body's there, but it's just the casing
It's the shell of a person I once knew.
I don't want you to die; I'd be left here on earth
But passing on brings peace and rebirth.
You'd be more than the shell of a person I once knew.
It's your choice in the end to fight or give up.
It's not our actions that define when or what…
Please be more than the shell of a person I once knew.
Release your spirit to Heavenly Father's grace
Only then will you see his kind, smiling face.
No longer a shell of a person I once knew.
You'd be free from all the worldly limitations.
In heaven you'd be expressing exclamations,
Freed from the shell of a person I once knew.
You're not really the shell of a person I once knew,
You're my mother and I love you.
You're not a burden that I heavily have to bear
You're strength, inspiration, and care.
You're kind and loving and all that I aspire to be
It's selfish to want to keep you here close to me.
You get to choose how long you want to stay
So I'll keep on coming every day
I'll rub your feet and scratch your back
Read you your line up and help you take a bath.
Mom, take your time, it's patience I'm learning
I'm developing and my soul's constantly yearning.
Each lesson is coming… selflessness and humility
You're who I want to be.
Until it affects someone we love,
We don't even know it's there.
It's really not our problem,
So why should we care.
The statistics are quite shocking,
One in four they say
Will suffer from depression
In their lives one day.
There's not much stigma anymore
For this serious mental flaw.
But no one knows where it will strike,
It's just the luck of the draw.
No one would choose to live with it,
And some don't even try.
I see my daughter suffering
And all she can do is cry.
Most people turn the other cheek,
They've been doing it for years.
But I must face the pain I see,
In my daughter's tears.
I am a wife and mother
Tried and True
I will go to the end of the earth
Just to see you through
I am a wife and mother
With righteousness I stand
No matter what your worries or problems
I will always be there to lend a hand
I am a wife and mother
With a world of love in my heart
Words of encouragement
From my lips will only part
I am a wife and mother
With a beautiful family to raise
All I ask for from you
Is a little love and praise
I am a wife and mother
Molded from Gods glorious hands above
To guide you in this life
And to cover you with the greatest love
In the bedroom you're a lover
in the kitchen you're a chef
with the kids you are a doctor
when do you ever rest?
With the bills you're an accountant
with the house work you're a maid
with the neighbors you are a diplomat
you're worth more than i could pay
At the gym you are my trainer
at the pool a lifeguard too
at the park you are a watch dog
is there nothing you can't do?
We may not ever know
all the jobs that you have done
but as many as you've had
can i add another one?
The title's CEO
and you've just been hired
as for all the other jobs...
let's say that you've retired
We thank you for the hard work
but your working days are through
and so from here on out
let us take care of you
Sometimes in life God smiles on us
And points us the right way to go
He did this for me several years back
And I met a little dog named Beau
He looked at me with questioning eyes
And I knew what it was that he lacked
He just wanted a home and someone to love
And someone to love him back
I brought him home to live with us
This little one so timid and shy
He gave us his love unconditionally
And added so much to our lives
He stayed with us for thirteen years
But had to leave us several years ago
His life on this earth had come to an end
Now God has a little dog named Beau
As we walk our path of life,
We meet people everyday.
Most are simply met by chance.
But, some are sent our way.
These become special friends
Whose bond we can't explain;
The ones who understand us
And share our joy and pain.
Their love contains no boundaries.
So, even when we are apart.
Their presence enhances us
With a warmth felt in the heart.
This love becomes a passageway,
When even the miles disappear.
These friends, God sends our way,
Remain forever near.
May my friendships always be
The most important thing to me;
With special friends I feel I'm blessed,
So let me give my very best.
I want to do much more than share
The hopes and plans of friends who care;
I'll try all that a friend can do
To make their secret dreams come true.
Let me use my heart to see,
To realize what friends can be,
And make no judgments from afar,
But love my friends the way they are.
Since the day that I was born
You have been my guiding light;
The one I always turn to
When things aren't going right.
You are generous with your time
When I need a helping hand:
If sometimes I'm neglectful,
You always understand.
You've been my inspiration,
As the years have come and gone;
A gentle loving Father,
Whom I can depend upon.
So on this special Father's Day
I send my thanks for all you do;
For no-one in the world deserves
More happiness than you.
