Your smile has touched my weeping heart,
You made me laugh though miles apart.
You took pain and showed me love,
You grabbed my hand and held me tight.
You made your way into my soul ...
You stop my breath, and take my all.
You look at me with longing eyes,
Tou carry me within your arms.
You stole my heart away,
You made it whole again.
You love me deeply,
You love me purely,
And today I say "I DO."
Here at the altar, facing you.
I can't promise you a life of sunshine;
I can't promise riches, wealth, or gold;
I can't promise you an easy pathway
Which leads away from change or growing old.
But I can promise all my heart's devotion;
A smile to chase away your tears of sorrow;
A love that's ever true and ever growing;
A hand to hold in yours through each tomorrow.
Yes, I'll Marry You.
You are the one who I always think,
I even see your face everytime I blink.
I really don't know why am I acting like this,
All I know that it is you who I miss.
When I think about you, my eyes seemed to glow,
When I dream of you, I hoped for no tomorrow.
To be with you right now is what I've wished
'Coz it is really you whom my heart has missed.
I believe that we will be together sooner or later.
How I hope that the time and day will pass faster
So that I'll be with you and hug you tight,
And never let go of you with all my might.
'Coz I really miss you and boy that is true.
Please come home,
I miss you so.
More then you could ever know.
Things have changed,
Since you've been gone.
No one to talk to
And no shoulder to cry on.
Our family and your friends
We all cried so much.
We miss you and your laugh
You're voice and soft touch.
I miss you and your smile.
I could add to this list,
Of everything I miss,
But there's no end, it doesn't exist.
I wish I could see you,
Just one last chance,
To see you smile,
Even if its just a glance.
I wish I could tell you
How much you meant to me
Just one last time,
Before you were set free.
Your life was too short
You had so much to live for
You were just eighteen,
And had places to explore.
Mom isn't the same
Without you in her life.
The emptiness in her eyes
Contains so much pain and strife.
Daddy has been drinking
He tries to forget,
What happened that day.
He drinks and smokes cigarettes.
It doesn't work though,
He just can't forget you.
He misses you so much,
And I do too.
Our brother is so sad
He can't cope with the pain.
A place in his heart,
Is where you'll always remain.
My sister, and your twin,
Still remains silent.
She lost her other half,
And seems so angry and violent
As for me, you're my idol
I just don't understand.
Why did you have to leave
Is it what God planned?
You have a place in my heart
I love you now, I love you still
I always have
And always will
I admire your strength
I admire your smile
I admire how you made
So many lives worthwhile.
The last breath you took,
You had a smile on your face.
And with that, I thank God
You're in a better place.
When I lay and think, in my bed at night,
the day you'll arrive, seems nowhere in sight.
I toss and I turn, dreaming of you,
opening my eye's... checking if my dream came true.
It didn't, again, and a tear starts to roll,
weeping quietly... my pillow I hold.
Many sleepless nights I've prayed for you, my love.
God touched my soul from heaven above
He's answered my prayers for my bride to be.
I've never felt this lucky, God did this for me.
That's a question I asked each and every night.
He must think your special, Joy, and I know he's right.
No other has made me feel so complete,
my whole life was lived, just so we could meet.
All these thoughts and more going through my head.
I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you... instead.
When we are apart my feelings are deep and true,
I know you are in pain for what I have done.
As I lay in bed alone I feel the same pain as you,
As you cry in bed I feel your tears down my cheek.
And sorry is not enough. I love you very much...
I never want to be away from you, out of touch.
I lay in bed alone at night and wonder why I'm here.
I do so much for everyone
Why don't they show they care?
I met this girl who said she loved me
something I haven't heard in so long.
She used me for my money
what a ride she took me on.
There is so much hurt I feel, so much anger trapped inside.
Sometimes I wish my dad was here, but to me he's not alive.
I have no one to talk to
These drugs seem to be the only way
Turns out it's a lie just like the smile I put on each and everyday.
I know outside I'm smiling, It's the face I fake for you,
But inside my soul is crying and there is nothing I can do.
I know my family loves me,
I'm there when their decisions are poor.
I'm sick of feeling like this walked on rug thrown upon the floor.
I lay in bed and wonder what the hell I'm doing here
Can I wake up from this dream?
Can I please just disappear?
I belong in your arms
Finally, I have found a place
Into which I fit Perfectly, Safely
And securely with no doubts,
No fears, No sadness, No tears.
This place is filled with happiness and laughter
Yet it is spacious enough, to allow me
The freedom to move around,
To live my life and be myself.
This wonderful place, which I never believed really existed,
I have found Finally
Inside your arms, Inside your heart, inside your love.
I'm sitting on the porch
Wind blowing through my hair
The ducks are frolicking in the pond
But I just can't seem to care.
Life goes on around me
I don't participate
I go through all the motions
But what I really do is wait.
I dream about the day
That you'll come home to me
Nothing else is important
Why can't people see?
I don't want to go out
I don't want to have fun
I don't want to do a thing
Until all is said and done.
They took you in the summer
Now fall is almost finished
Winter will be here very soon
And then the year will have diminished.
You have no idea how much I cry
I never let you know
It's so hard out here without you
But I'm not allowed to let it show.
I must pretend all is fine
Everyone thinks all's okay
But what I never ever tell them
Is that I cry for you every day.
Sometimes at night,
when I lay down to sleep,
I embrace myself,
I start to think ...
Then I imagine
that you lie beside me ...
hugs and kisses
all over my body.
I wish you
could really be here,
just to whisper,
"I love you," in my ear.
I would turn around and say,
"I love you, too."
But will it ever be true?
So I turn around
and I wonder some more,
still wanting your embrace,
so I close my eyes and picture your face.
I fall asleep dreaming of you.
In my dream it seems so true.
It's as if I can really feel
your kisses against my lips ...
Then my eyes pop open
and you're nowhere to be seen,
And I feel so lonely
once AGAIN !!!
What has happened is never spoken
Everything around me has been broken
There's no words, just silence.
Hate, but no violence
Sadness, without tears
Humans, without fears.
When will the ground break?
Where is the open gate?
Slowly, the darkness creeps
But still, no one weeps.
All are withering
Hearts are shriveling.
This world has grown cold
There's no one left to hold.
I fear that I too will join them soon
Just when the light fades from the moon.
My beloved has been turned into a dove
And now I know what becomes of this world,
Without his love.
My love is like the sun that warms me when I am cold,
And like the cool water of the brook that refreshes me.
My love knows the secret pleasures of my soul,
And delights with me in fulfilling them.
Who is my love but the soul of my soul,
And the reason for every beat of my heart.
Who fills me with life in the joy of her presence,
And returns to me more than I have given.
Come to me, my love, I die without you.
Each day is eternity, waiting for your touch.
Remove the tears from my eyes and the ache in my heart,
Be closer than my breath, all my days, all my nights.
I know what I had.
I know what I lost.
I know what I need.
I was blind and could not see,
What was right in front of me.
Guide me with your light,
Beautiful soul shining bright.
Now I can see
You are the only thing and everything I will ever need.
You are and forever will be.
My love ... My life.
How do I love thee?
Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old grief, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints. I love with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
I miss you
It hurts to think of everything we went through
I wish you could see my heart
I hate that we're apart
I cry for your touch
Baby I miss you so much
You've changed into someone I don't know
Remember when you told me you'd never let go?
What happened between you and I?
I remember the nights we'd lay there and look at the sky
The point is I miss you
And I want to kiss you
I wish I could rewind time
And make you mine
But theres no way of getting you back
And now your just one thing in life that I lack
I don't know why things are like this
I just want to tell you that it's you that I really miss.
You were on my mind when I woke up this morning
remembering your smile
I guess the next time I'll see your face
will take a little while
I was remembering your arms around me
love the way they always feel warm
with you by my side
I completely feel no harm
I was remembering your voice
makes my heart skip a beat
but without you baby
my whole body's weak.
I was remembering our times
the good and the bad
the funny times when you cheered me up
and especially the sad
remembering your eyes
how they always meet mine
remembering all the little things you do
to make my life worthwhile
I was wondering when we'll be together
just us two
I guess I'm missing you more than I usually do.
I remember how it used to be
when nothing else mattered but you and me
music, country roads, and future dreams.
I miss you, I wish you could see ...
Although you are here, I miss you and me.
I remember when you said how happy I made you
and you really meant it... but now,
it's just a phrase you say without thinking.
I miss those days when you'd call just to say "hi"
or "I love you"... the days it was so hard
just to say good-bye for a while.
I remember how wonderful it felt the first time
you held me in your arms and how after all those
years you still made my heart melt.
I miss the old you and the old me
The old us that could just sit and talk for hours
and never run out of things to say.
I remember when time simply stood still
when in each other's arms is the only place
we wanted to be... forever.
I miss us as I remember how it used to be ...
when nothing else mattered but you and me.
You're always on my mind, day and night
When I think of you, all feels so right
Need to have you, need to hold you
And tell you that I love you.
My dear, I don't want to see us apart
This separation just tears away my heart
I miss you, oh, I really miss you
Will need you more and more each day
I know I cannot live without you
I miss you, more than words can say.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Crimson red fills the bowl and I think I'm going to be sick.
With every thing spinning so fast I cannot breath.
Walls closing in and everything fades.
Fashes of light come by, one, by one.
Feeling sleepy not knowing your name.
Not knowing mine.
There it is. my favorite thing of all this,
ah the feeling of pain is gone from before and new form enters me.
Laying here waiting for you to come home.
I open my eyes and see flashes of you and me from before you went.
You walk inside.
You call to me and wait for an answer.
You hear small light breaths coming from the bathroom.
thinking it is me, you walk down the hall with a smile.
the kind that makes your knees go week.
You walk in. Oh god, is all you can think.
I'm trying to look up at you but I can't move.
a cold chill comes over me as you pick me up.
You say we are going to the hospital and that everything will be ok.
You rush me in.
Blood running down.
The nurse rushes you to a bed so I can lay down.
I can hear you asking her something.
But I can't make out the words.
I feel something cold and wet touch my face then my arm.
I feel the prick of a sharp object go in my right arm.
The nurse says that I need stitches because the wound is to deep.
I feel the thread go in and out through my arm.
And a band-aid go around and around.
After I have slept for two days they let you in.
I can move again and open my eyes.
You say that I got 76 stitches because the cuts were way to deep.
And that I almost died.
I pull off the band-aid and look.
I see over 20 cuts and begin to cry.
You tell me its ok and we will get some help.
About 5 years later.
We have two to deal with ourselves.
Jake and Emma.
A beautiful baby boy and baby girl.
The scars are still there.
Some times I wish I could go back 5 years and change what I did do so I can make it right.
I feel sometimes like I've truly lost my way
At times it's hard to make it through the day
When I have the chance to sit and think
I stare ahead and never stop to blink
My heart is loudly crying out for you
My soul is crying out for love so true
I don't know how I've made it this long
I don't know how I've stayed so strong.
I guess I am waiting for the day
When all of my pain will go away
It's been so hard without you by my side
Losing you took away so much of my pride
You are part of me, a piece of my soul
And until you find me, I will never be whole.
I am so sorry that I let you go
And hope one day that you will know
That all I wanted was the best for you
Even though it's torn my world in two
The only reason I am still alive
Is the hope that you'll be by my side
I want you to know wherever you are
That even if the distance is far
You are always here in my heart and soul
I'm leaving this is God's control.
One day he'll send you back to me
One day my heart will again be free
My love for you will never end
When you're back, my heart will mend
Just know a daughters love is forever
Even if we are not together.
My heart aches when I talk to you
My heart aches when I don't hear from you
My heart aches when I long for you.
I don't know why
You've taken over my thoughts
I can't explain
You're still a stranger
Far away
I want you close by
I miss your embrace
Holding you close
My heart aches
I miss you!
Because of you I have a reason to smile.
Wanted to see you but you said you'd be away for a while.
When will you come back to me?
So we can hold each other while we sleep?
I think of you every night.
Wishing I can hold you tight.
You're my yum yum and I'm your bumble bee.
No matter what happend in my heart is where you'll be.
The day you come back to me
Promise me you will never leave.
For you my heart sings sweetly
Do come and lay by me
The sand does part so neatly
As we lay beside the sea.
It's tune is of a sorrow
That when you're gone will hold
A saying it will borrow
Nothing to stay that's gold.
The lullaby my heart beats
As i hold you in my arms
While closing now our eyes meet
The dark has got its charm.
I lay in bed alone at night and wonder why I'm here.
I do so much for everyone
Why don't they show they care?
I met this girl who said she loved me
something I haven't heard in so long.
She used me for my money
what a ride she took me on.
There is so much hurt I feel, so much anger trapped inside.
Sometimes I wish my dad was here, but to me he's not alive.
I have no one to talk to
These drugs seem to be the only way
Turns out it's a lie just like the smile I put on each and everyday.
I know outside I'm smiling, It's the face I fake for you,
But inside my soul is crying and there is nothing I can do.
I know my family loves me,
I'm there when their decisions are poor.
I'm sick of feeling like this walked on rug thrown upon the floor.
I lay in bed and wonder what the hell I'm doing here
Can I wake up from this dream?
Can I please just disappear?
What would you do
in 5 short years?
Would you make them the most
or hide from your fears?
Our little Cory
chose to live
Every day with a smile
and love to give
Though stricken with cancer
before he was one
his journey through life
had only begun
No matter how bad
he might have felt
He always knew how
to make your heart melt
Living life to its fullest
Each day he Awoke
He could make you smile
Every time he spoke
He filled the room
with laughter and tears
And touched many lives
in his 5 short years
He had a surprise
if you took his hand
then walk you outside
to his baseball land
It was the game he loved
more than anyone you know
Once his bat in hand
He'd put on a show
He would talk of his pets
if you'd lend him an ear
or anything else
you'd take time to hear
There were no strangers
to Cory Duane
He cared for everyone
no matter their name
The most amazing child
for such a young man
He looked up to his father
---- His biggest fan
When he was picked up at school
he beat all the kids out
with his arms opened wide
"That's my Dad" he would shout
They would wait on his brother
before going home with Dad
And spend the whole weekend playing
with every toy he had
He would tease his brothers
in his superman Jammies
and rock his guitar
like those at the Grammy's
Course Nana and Papa
would often stop by
to see that their "Precious"
was doing alright
At the close of day
He'd ask "Pat my Butt"
Knowing you'd take time
no matter what
He fought hard to beat
the disease he had
And would never complain
of feeling bad
It's certainly not fair
the battle he fought
All those who knew him
took in what he taught
For those who missed out
on life's smallest lesson
We're sorry you missed out
on our biggest blessing
For someone so young
his heart was of Gold
You would never have known
he was just 5 years old
